I Ruin Everything

Posted in Uncategorized on June 23, 2008 by melanie

I am a colossal failure.  So says the person who meant the most to me.

I have shut myself off.  Otherwise, I will shut down.


One More for the Road

Posted in Uncategorized on May 30, 2008 by melanie

I’ve also transferred my Microsoft Paint creations from their terrible Weebly/Flickr site to a new home here at WordPress.

Binge and Purge

There’s a Pattern in the System

Posted in Uncategorized on May 29, 2008 by melanie

I’ve decided that I currently don’t feel like writing about me.

In the meantime my new site, Our Hell,  is up and running.  Just one more thing to divert me from being tangibly productive in the world outside of my laptop.

Sometimes, things are so messy, it’s better just to acknowledge the mess and live around it.

That’s Why

Posted in Uncategorized on May 19, 2008 by melanie

The biological purpose for a species’ existence is procreation.  In this sense: the perpetuation of the genetic, instinctual and learned behaviours resulting through the life of said species.

Humans, not being precluded from the natural world (though at times it may not appear as such) share the common goal of procreation.  Our highly developed cognitive abilities allow us to not only procreate biologically but in the other sense of the word as well:  to bring into being.

If human life is experience then we are constantly procreating through our shared experiences.  Relying heavily on empiricism, it can be said that nothing can be known save that which we have ourselves experienced.  All thought and therefore action is based on prior first-hand evidence that influences us.  But nothing is so simple.  I propose that through our shared experiences, by learning through that which others tell us of their first-hand experiences, we are able to base our thought and action on this knowledge as well.  In this way, by sharing our selves and our thoughts relating to our actions and the experiences that have caused these things, we are allowing others to consider and perhaps adapt new perspectives.

“The other person’s behaviour is an experience of mine. My behaviour is an experience of the other.”  Because we are basing our perception of an other’s experience on our own past experience, this is an imperfect means of learning.  But because all learning and experience is imperfect based on this rationale, this form of learning is as beneficial as any other.  Because, in relating their experience, an other is basing their perception of the experience from past events in their own life, this is an imperfect means of learning.  But all learning is such and therefore this is just as productive as any other.  

To experience is to bring into being that which has yet to occur in our self.  To lend to others an experience, by creating it through interaction or through shared perspective, we are bringing into being that which has yet to occur in an other’s self.  Thus, we are in a constant state of procreation.

To put life in to base terms is to reduce it to experience and the actions resulting from our thoughts of experiences,  which become experiences for others.  At this level, the introduction of the notion that the purpose of life is procreation allows us to see how intrinsic these two concepts are.

And so, I need not feel bad that I have no desire to have children.


Sporadic Caloric Intake

Posted in Uncategorized on May 18, 2008 by melanie

I’m hungry.  

I haven’t bought groceries since a week before I left for Montreal.  Suppose I should go do that now.

No, Thank You

Posted in Uncategorized on May 17, 2008 by melanie

I read today that a lack of sleep is being linked to a higher likelihood of emotional irrationality. 

I think this makes good sense.

My new site (still in the works): Binge and Purge



Posted in Uncategorized on May 10, 2008 by melanie

“Change your thoughts and change your world.”